Marissa is about a month into school and this morning while looking for something to wear, she tells me that she needs to go to shopping to buy some new clothes. I stop… think in my confused state and say, Marissa. What is it you don’t have? She continues on to tell me she has already worn all the clothes she got for the school year once and ” it’s not her style” to wear them again.
As the morning goes on, I was going through her desk to find a pencil to sign her homework slip and was digging through the 50 packs of diffrently packaged markers, colored pencils, crayons, and more to finally find 10 packs of pencils… that need to be sharpened.
We are running out the door almost late because Marissa cannot decide between her 4 pairs of pink shoes and which will go with todays outfit the best….
Today I leave the house so frustrated with the excess! All the clothes that are not appreciated. The extra markers that are not being used and the shoes that are making me late…. In my Anger I have decided on the way to school that this is over…We are going through things! Getting rid of things! Not buying new things… but then realize…What about me…
I am the cause of my own frustration. 1- I have supplied her with all of this which I am so upset by- 2- Her attitude of needing more and more surely didn’t develop on her own… and lastly 3- I am SO MUCH WORSE…..
And here we are again today discussing the… my makeup. The overwhelming, un needed, unloved- largely untouched, ginormous, ridiculous makeup collection that I have sitting in the bathroom/ hall closet. How can I say a word to her with this crazy obsession that I have?
Today, I sit her truly tired of the excess in my life. I was in church a few weeks back and the Pastor was speaking something about how we are ruined by choices. How we can’t even make decisions any longer because of the amount of choices we have. Its to stressful…. ITS TOO MUCH….. This morning I am yearning for simplicity.
This isn’t just related to makeup. This applies to so many other areas in my life. Clothes, Shoes, handbags and everything else that I feel a need for more… I can try and say I will get rid of some things… Or I can say I will stop buying things… But Will I?
So I ask, When will TOO MUCH ever be enough?